My Life

What I need is someone I can hug. What I need is someone I can talk to. What I need is someone I can cry to. What I need is someone I can laugh to. What I need is someone I can love and them love me back. What I need is someone I can complain to. What I need is someone I can keep. What I need is someone who can help me. What I need is someone who can hug me. What I need is someone who can love me. What I need is someone who can talk to me whenever we need to talk. What I need is someone who can keep me from self harm. What I need is someone who can laugh with me. What I need is someone who can complain with me. What I need is someone who can teach me. What I need is someone who can be there. What I need is someone who can be the reason, I still want to live at the end of the day. Now, where is that someone? I know, nowhere.

So much is going on in my life. But it's good things. Aside from my stress so that means I get even more spots. Btw: Apple Cider Vinegar total fake - well for me anyways. It didn't do a thing apart from leaving rashes on my face or ruining my taste buds. It helps with a sore throat but that's about it. These things put a lot of pressure on me, and sometimes I wish I had a boyfriend who could just take my mind of things so that's what I'm going to do, get a boyfriend!

I have this really nice bag (which is ridiculously small) and the leading part ina local production but for some reason life still feels like a lie. My friends have fallen out and it feels like I'm pressured to take a side. I don't know what to do. That's it. I just don't know what to do. It's not that I'm bored it's that every situation I'm in could lead to so many possibilities, possibities I myself, can't handle physically and emotionally. I feel like a sponge who soaks up all the negatives and washes out all the positives.

What Happened. Why is everythin so different? Why has everyone changed so much? Life really sucks.

I normally don't have anything to say to anyone unless it's important - even then. But with you. It's different. I can think of everything and anything to say to you. 101 million things to say to you, but nothing to say to anybody else. You make me feel different. It's like you're impossible to resist. My knees go week. My hands feel cold. My lips feel dry. My chest beats faster. My body feels lonely so very lonely. And all I long for is you to change all that. I can tell when your in the room. I love the feel of your warm breath on my neck, your warm hands holding mine. Your lips pressed against mine. Your warm embrace. It's uncontrollable. Luke. I. Love. You.