My Life

 So today I'm starting of with something other than my love life. But don't get too excited we'll be moving back to that soon. Haha, I don't know why relationships are always on my mind. I guess it's to fill the void of loneliness I seem to always feel whenever I'm by myself. Anyway, I'm currently in the process of applying to placements. And it's just such a depressing feeling, there's so many great places but the requirements are far beyond what I'm capable of. And on top of that we have tests during the selections stages. This seriously worries me, I understand from an employer's perspective why they're doing this but... You know what, I can't continue talking about that. There's something that weighs more on my mind. That's Loneliness. It feels like he comes at every single moment and reminds me of how sad parts of my life are. And I always try to stay positive but it's hard. I look around and I just wish I felt that s...

 So I thought I would make a quick update on the men that I've been talking about previously. So none of them have worked out, as to be expected. I really really tried with some. I've gotten over my feelings for basically all of them, as a new guy has become closer to me. Yes that's including Nate, I couldn't bring myself to remove him yet, but I will eventually. As for the others, I got rid of some and will be in the process of getting rid of the others, but none of those have progressed any further so I don't see why I should cut them off when I'm still technically single. Nate and I were messing up until around the 18th I think, I wished him merry Christmas and he wished me back. But since then, nothing. Mano the Egyptian dude, did some shady shit on instagram, and I caught him out and he just tried to lie his way out of it - so I cut him off. He was an unattractive, worthless piece of shit, with no future from some backwards fucking country. It wasn't go...