A better life

I'm new and improved, I know I keep repeatedly saying that but it's true. Once I was hopeless and alone and now, well I'm still alone but I'm not hopeless. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel. A dead end doesn't exist in my world, not in my books. The only thing that is bugging me now, is my studies. I spent so much time worrying on my life and what was happening to me that I was missing my way out. Unfortunately, I'm so different that I don't know what job I want to do. I know for certain I want to act but I don't really need any qualifications for that, and I want to draw, but I again don't really need qualifications and you don't get paid a lot and I don't know if I'm any good. Perhaps I might post some of my art in the next pictures. I want to get really good at art, so then I have another talent that I can rely on. Another thing I like is cats. But strangely I also dislike them. Maybe a cattery would be quite fun but I'd have to trade in my house for a furry kingdom. I'm finding Maths and English extremely difficult, Science I'm getting the grasps off but Maths and English oh it's so difficult especially Maths. With Science all I have to do is remember things, but with Maths I have to remember methods, understand the method and try to do the method correctly without mistakes that could effect my final answer. I'm finding the remembering and understanding part hard. My friend get's A* and As and it so bugs me out. Why can't I be smart?
Today I went for a reading for a play called 'The Graduate', and it was hilarious! It was so rude. I was under aged, obviously (I went so that people could see me) and there was a sex scene, good job we was only reading!! Funny, I think I would've suited the Stripper part the best. I haven't really been watching season 6 of the Vampire Diaries, however I really miss the old seasons (1-3). It's not that I dislike the new seasons (4-6 mainly 5 and 6) of course I think there excellent it's just when you compare them to the old seasons where you actually felt real emotions and tension. Anyway aside from being so emotional over the quality in each Vampire Diaries season, I really want some merchandises. Like Elena's Fat Face Belle Henley T- Shirt, and the Pacific Hollister White Tank Top, but both are sold out. Darn you!! And the Pacific Top was only £6! and the Henley was only £12! I really wanted the Henley because I can't find anything like it! Moving on to something that's in stock, I want to get Caroline's ring (because it looks the prettiest) and Elena's Vervain necklace, and Stefan/Damon's ring and the Gilbert family ring and Elena's ring! Obviously not going to wear all of them at once, but I'll change it up every day. I just really needed some new jewellery. Speaking of jewellery (about 4 weeks back) I got my ears pierced and now I want some new earrings! I'm also thinking of my second piercing. Maybe my belly button if I'm brave, otherwise my cartilage at the top of my ear, or another lobe one if I can fit it in. Sorry if this is rather abrupt but I'm going to have to go now, I'm tired and I need my sleep!! Wish me luck for tomorrow first day back! ~ kinda.