Wildest Dreams

I've never felt so alone, so lost, so empty inside. I am trying my best to forget about Luke, and just move on but it is so hard. All the time, I just work, work, work and I'm just doing school work so much, I have nothing fun in my life. And I don't even feel anything ANYTHING for anyone else apart from him. It's been over 2 months since I last saw him, shouldn't I at least start to feel better? Why does everyday feel like it hurts more? Why can I not find that one guy who makes me feel something? Why am I so fucking in love with Luke? God, what is up with this. I want another chance, another shot, another guy. Someone who I will truly feel something for, and he will feel something for me. You know what, even if the whole fucking world loved me, maybe that would make me feel a little better. Or just maybe it is that I'm going to be alone forever, Maybe I can pretend to love someone else. With enough practise, I can probably convince myself.

When I think back to the time that we stopped talking, I just wish he felt something for me. Even if it was just a little day dream, a little mind wander where we are romantically involved. Do you think he'll even remember me? I hope so, I hope he remembers me as much as I remember him. Taylor Swift's Wildest Dreams lyrics just explain what I am feeling for him. Maybe it's just a stage of moving on. I guess there will always be a place for Luke in my heart, and until I feel like that place has been replaced with something else, something better, I won't feel settled. I've just never met a guy that is even as remotely attractive as him, not physically but mentally, you know when you feel like that guy is the one? It's just like that for me. I just feel like I need to be with him, like I am supposed to be with him,

I shouldn't give up so easy, maybe we'll meet again, one day in the future. But if we do meet again, I'm not ever letting him go.

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