Luke? Jealous? What!

So today was a normal shitty day, like all the others. I went around and did stuff, my friend Teeghan wasn't in and she's pretty much the person I see in ALL my lessons so I just sit next to her. So it started with Science I sat next to this boy called Cameron, who I used to know in Year 7 a lot better, but you know high school people change, and go apart or they just fall out and want to kill each other or they just go out, break up and then want to kill each other. Anyway so we was doing the practical (experiment) like usual, and me and Cameron were working on it. We were next to this sink, and my book was right on the corner. During the practical, Luke walks over to the sink and asks me, "Whose book is this?" When it's pretty obvious it's mine since I'm standing right next to it. And I replied, "Mine." And he looked at me so seductively with his cheeky grin and his intimidating eyes, "It would be a shame for it to get wet" and at that point I wasn't sure if this was some kind of secret code or something that I had to put together but I was pretty sure he wasn't talking about the book. He tried to turn the tap and then realised it doesn't move, "Haha, it doesn't even fucking move." He laughed away, so I just turned away and carried on with the practical, because I knew something. I'd barked up that tree and just got a broken branch that hit me in the face, very hard. He wanted a reaction out of me, but he wasn't going to get one because Luke. I'm sick of all your mind games, your weakening me and I have restless nights, I fucking get that we're never going to be together, so why can't you stop? But I don't want him to stop. I want him to carry on. He does something to me that no one can ever do. I don't feel anxious of what people are thinking or saying, I just feel like I can be myself and he'll be fine with it. It'll never happen, not in this life anyway. Society is fucked up. Life's a bitch.

Moving on, so Luke had put his finger under the tap and then dropped a drop of water from the edge of his finger on the corner of my book - he loves annoying me. Anyway when the lesson ended I walked to my Computing class. Now I'm a freaking Queen at computers so I was FABULOUS!! Anyway for some reason in that lesson, he was being really cold. His seat is next to mine, and he had his seat leant towards the other side of him. And he didn't speak to me once, just the fact about my favourite food. Because I put in this script that we were working on in Python about ourselves, I put that my favourite food was Pasta and he said,"Just pasta, like with no sauce or anything?" I said, "No, not like that". "What sauce do you have with it?" "I have cheesy sauce, like carbonara." I don't know what that conversation was to imply but my anxiety goes I N S A N E when he is looking at my work, or me or just looking in my direction at all and when he's talking to me I mumble my words and normally say the first thing that pops in my head also I shake a lot and get really sweaty. Anyway after computer science, was lunch. After lunch was another science. This time we sit at opposite ends really since the classroom changed round. Anyway I decided that I'd talk to I really cute guy called Jack next to me (spoke to him a bit in the previous science lesson) since he had a pretty good physique, personality and was really funny and he had a UGLY girlfriend. Anyway my weird way into a conversation with him normally involves this stretchy toy I got from a friend, I just call it a 'Dildo' just because it gets some attention from people especially guys and also it's kinda sexy in a way I guess. So this girl called Beth, she is the girl that Luke likes, shouts (because we're at opposite ends) "You know, Luke used to bully me in science last year." And I was thinking Yes, I fucking know because I had to sit next to you both flirting for almost 2 fucking years, how lovely! And I was a bit pissed off because Luke wasn't giving me any attention, so I said "Yeah, Luke and Jack kept flirting with you." (BTW this is a different Jack.) And Beth didn't hear it, so Jack (The Jack that I hit with the dildo, wtf lol??) says, "Did you hear that? Beth Beth, Thingy said that Luke was flirting with you last year." I can fucking kill him sometimes, because he needs to learn when to shut his big fat gob! "Fuck off" Luke shouted to me, "You're flirting with Jack" and then I wasn't slow replying, "Shut up, I'll hit you with this!" and I showed the dildo in my left hand since I wanted the situation to be comedic because to be honest, I wouldn't really like to get in a fight with my crush. So that was kinda the jealousy. I mean it wasn't obvious, and it wasn't really like I was flirting. I was just talking to Jack because Teeghan was off. Did Luke get jealous? He knows that I'd choose him over any man any day.