Update on the troubles of men

 So I thought I would make a quick update on the men that I've been talking about previously. So none of them have worked out, as to be expected. I really really tried with some. I've gotten over my feelings for basically all of them, as a new guy has become closer to me. Yes that's including Nate, I couldn't bring myself to remove him yet, but I will eventually. As for the others, I got rid of some and will be in the process of getting rid of the others, but none of those have progressed any further so I don't see why I should cut them off when I'm still technically single. Nate and I were messing up until around the 18th I think, I wished him merry Christmas and he wished me back. But since then, nothing. Mano the Egyptian dude, did some shady shit on instagram, and I caught him out and he just tried to lie his way out of it - so I cut him off. He was an unattractive, worthless piece of shit, with no future from some backwards fucking country. It wasn't going anywhere. He wanted me for my body. He wanted a fuck, that was it. You know and the audacity of these guys, I make it really clear I want a serious relationships: on my bio, I even ask them what are they looking for and explain directly to their fucking face that I want a serious relationship, not a quick fuck, not fucking friends with fucking benefits, not some lame fucking half-assed dating shit, an ACTUAL FUCKING RELATIONSHIP. Why is that so hard to understand? I'm not expecting you to give me the fucking moon and stars. Just be a decent fucking human being and respect that this is what I want. I want to go on dates, I want to call you my boyfriend, I want you to call me your girlfriend. I don't want to be fucking discrete behind closed doors. You know the amount of guys who check me out and would love to be with me. You should be fucking grateful that you have me as your girlfriend, just as I would be fucking grateful for you. Don't manipulate me and fucking use me to satisfy your fucking fetish and your fucking dick. And another thing like if you're not into me anymore just fucking say so, I hate being like in these awkward stage of not knowing whether they like me or not. Like they go from 100 to like 10 percent and it's just like oh you should get the message. He says he likes you and all this other shit, but you're also supposed to interpret that he's not interested anymore and you need to leave. And like I wouldn't mind if this is one or two guys but I mean dude, I've fucking talked to like 50+ guys in the past year, and some of them have been decent and just haven't worked out and btw guess what I'm still friends with all the ones that I rejected unless they were a complete dick. And the decent ones probably are about 4 out of those 50+. It's just so fucking annoying, I don't have a sexist mentality thinking that all guys are like this because I know they aren't some of my guy friends are fucking amazing but to be honest I'm not dating them, so I don't know how they are in relationships. But it just seems like most straight guys are fucking awful with girls.

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