The Big Show and the After Taste

Today was slightly more different than I thought, Over the top makeup, Ripped leggings, Itchy wig to me it actually appeared lucky as nothing drastic had happened. I had more confidence on stage than off, like BIG TIME! My drama teacher had made more jokes than he should have and my friend Lotte just stole the show. She even had to play-in as this character called 'Father Bear' not really the best role for a lady but she was fine and if I can say she was miles better than the real Father Bear! Anyway my role included putting tarty makeup on and wearing an over-sized bra so it was kind of uncormfortable to walk around and strech. Also it was really hot! Not in a hot, 'Oh that guy is hot' but in a 'Oh my, its freaking boiling in here!' partially because I was in a fat suit (it was hairy too!) but also because I did a LOT of moving around. So thats why I carried a fan around, also because I nothing to do with my hands so now I could strike so mother-like poses and some prostitue-like poses too, I'm glad I had an under-garmet on because I could wear it without one. After the show, I feel so sad and miserable and gloomy. It's something scientific-like. I just feel like I just want to jump of a bridge and die, okay maybe not that bad but you get what I mean. It feels like there is nothing left to do in life like all my energy has been drained. I hate this feeling...