My Dad is away

I know I've already explained how my Dad is away but I just can't cope without him. Actually I can't cope with seeing them all the time, and by them I mean my mother and my brother. They always gang up on me, My mother seems to always have a go at me, or a nag at me, or just complain and it gets really annoying. She does this whole thing like she's looking after us and doing all the work. Well she isn't. Nobody has to 'look after' me, in fact nobody does. You just have to feed me. I do the rest by myself. You don't take any of my stress on, I don't think you even listen to anything I say because you always come out with some random other thing or say Yeah Yeah. So whenever my mother has a go at me, my brother does. And it gets so annoying, I get that I'm a little different and I may look like I'm sad all the time but that's because of people like you causing it everyday. Why the fuck do you think I'm depressed? BECAUSE OF YOU! I can't stand living here... Fuck my childhood, I really don't give a shit anymore. I just want to get out of here and live somewhere nice, were I don't have to put up with anybody's crap. At least my Dad would try and back me up a little (which normally resolved in my mum telling him not to get involved and having a go at him) sure he would shout at me and my brother would join in but it wasn't as bad as this. Literally, I'll walk pass them in the living room to go to the kitchen or something and they will say something that's patronizing. WHAT IS THE POINT!? Why the fuck do you have to do that?!?!? Why do you feel the need to insult everything about me?

Oh and what's the annoying part is my mum has told everyone who asks that she's got a really hectic life and that she's doing so much work and then she lists the jobs that I'M FUCKING DOING. And then I get people telling me that I need to help out, and that she's going through a difficult time. FUCK OFF!!!! I am doing everything I can, and I know she is going through a difficult time with her husband being away for 4 weeks (2 weeks left) but so am I, so is my brother, so is my Dad. Yeah, he is away from home, and everyone is giving you the sympathy. Literally, that's what my mother lives off sympathy. I HATE it when people constantly complain about there lives. Yes, I get it. Your life is terrible, even worse than mine but what is the point in telling me this everyday? It's not like I can do anything about it for fuck's sake. Anyway I think I'm calm now. Hey, I just realised that I am starting to write daily! Maybe I should try and keep up and write daily although I know that nobody is reading this but I'd like to think so.